after mye i'm having all the time in my life to waste by messing up my life all over again. i'm starting this emo thing again. every single thing is not in my way. i've been fighting with my dad/sister every single morning since this damn week start. the whole week is just a terribly bad week. i wasnt wanted in anywhere and nobody seems to be really sparing a thought for me, for my situation, i feel as if i've been thrown all over the place over and over again. my dad is taking me for granted just because i'm more easy-going and more heck care, my friends are alright, if not fitting in and feeling not accepted or given the very nice "she doesnt make a difference" kinda shit is alright, then they're more than alright. aw i'm such a brat complaining about every single shit. whatever, just remember theres a reason behind everything, if you cant be bothered to ask, i wont be bothering myself to say. if you insist that what you think is right, i'm really sorry to tell you that you're so wrong cause you dont know me. i dont need a solution cause there isnt any, i just need a way out and it'll do good if people actually cares. not just fooling around like we're clowns or emoing like we're some freaks who cut ourselves.nobody is there to let me spill out my rants and shit, theres barely anytime we have, i think we need to talk but if nobody is gonna try, i wont too, i wont be the one who start the talk going anymore.
ystd, went out with duster, mrsIT, nasihuaoh and yijie, it was alright with all the walking and from bugis to fareast. just walking around and talking about crap~ i guess it was pretty fun. too bad xiaohui and swanser got cca, aha i feel so great not having any, lol. killed 150+ drumming bunnies for those stuipd drums ystd after coming back. and then i cant stand the low droprate and spawn so i ditched sugar and went to wack to pqpqpq with puuuuuuu~! however, gorilla is alr 31 and stupid puu cant use it anymore so she decided to ask charlene for sam~! we've got very pro pq ldr who missed three times in a row! while tania and i were so pro we got in when we're the ldr! spam clicking~! aha we rocks! so now even sam is lvl31 alr-.- and i feel like training my storage as a cleric cause i like to heal heal heal even though they all insist that i suck at healing-_- i just wanna pqpqpqpq in kerning~! aha pqing is love i'm gonna pq until 30 for my lovewack and then remain at 30 forever just to pq! enough of maple i'm suppose to curse about something-_-
got back report book ystd oh yeah feijuan leaving and its damn sad la shes so nice she gave us sweets and chocolates and note! wth the new teacher remind me of yappie,which is a bad thing and she cant teach and also shes so much uglier than yappie and just so much worst than yappie in terms of everything. aww, but thats not the main point. the thing is my class position is like shit,however thats not the main point yet. the point is i hate chia cause he freakingly gave me a good for conduct, which is for your info quite a bad thing cause no teachers will give us fair/poor. so good is like the worst thing! WTH LA. giving me a good isnt making me stop folding my socks or start tucking in my shirt. whats his god damn problem seriously! ITS NOT LIKE I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO IS NOT REALLY NEAT AT THE FUCK-UP GROOMING RIGHT. hes just biased cause he dont like me. fine whatever, its not like i respect him at all! ooh i'm gonna insult him cause he gave me a good! he doesnt even knowhow to teach at all la! all the calculation shit is i learn from the tb myself one la! I LEARNT EVERYTHING FROM THE TB MYSELF FOR CHEM LA, HE NVR EVEN TEACH PROPERLY! hes lucky cause i didnt get him for the teacher survey shit or hes gonna suffer, i wanna get him next year! TMD, hes so unfair la! he always ask me and only me to pull up my socks when so many other ppl have fucking low socks in class la! either hes partially blind that he can only see my shoes or hes just trying to pick on me. sorry this isnt helping, its not like i'll respect you more or listen to you. you gave me a good and made me go emo and low and you still ask us to go clear the lockers filled with the stuffs for the notice board? ITS LIKE I GIVE YOU A SLAP AND ASK YOU TO CLEAN MY SHOES FOR ME. THANKS ALOT REALLY THANKS ALOT, YOU'RE THE BEST TEACHER I'VE EVER HAD.
ps. i think appearing offline on msn is cool now.
♥i forced myself not to look out for you,cause i know i will/ &i dont know why i'm reluctant to let you be out of my life.
